The Growing Up Process

Haven't blogged in ages... And this time I am blogging with a new identity.. "The Grownup"...
It may seem a little ironic to put this as the growing up process since I'm pretty old... Haven't I grown at all? Yeah I did of course, but it was my trip to Melbourne that had opened my eyes and widened my horizons on what I have been missing out my whole life.. Yes, the growing up process...

I went to Melbourne for 2ish months and it was a great time of knowing more friends and Melbourne... I have been to Melbourne many times but a few weeks is not the same compared to a few months... I took in the culture of Auzzies and learnt a lot about life through the people around me.

Outwardly, I learnt how to cook and clean, something I have never done in my whole life since everything has to taken care of for me since young... It's not a bad thing, fortunate I should say, however I have not tasted the freedom of independency...till now... I felt the joy of doing things myself and I learnt that I loved to cook!!! From the point where I did not know how to hold a peeler to skin a fruit to the competency of slicing thin shreds of carrots to bake my carrot cake... It was sheer joy...

Inwardly I have changed too... I foudn that I wasn't so angry anymore... Not that I had been a rebel and angry person my whole life, but there I discover inner peace that says "There is nothing to get upset about." I realised how small and narrowminded I have been, wallowing in my little world of comparison and pride... I realised I have been selfish and had been putting a guard around people, hurting them first before they can get me... However life is not like that!!! My boyfriend kept teling me this "Life is not about quantity, but the quality.." I have never understood this until now...

Yesteray I went to watch "Dance of the Dragon" and there were two incidents that peeved me a little... A lady was trying to get through to her seat during the movie and she accidently stepped on a container. A lot of people started to laugh. Towards the end of the show, there was a dancing scene where the music changed and people laughed too. I was thinking "What is so funny about it? Are we Singaporeans too full of ourselves that we laugh at others at anything just to prove that we are better and smarter?" I once belonged to this category, but I was proven wrong... We are so small and ignorant, yet we try to beef it up by being people we are not...

I'm not a pro-Auzzie activist, but I felt that we should look beyond who we are in Singapore to broaden our views and thinking... For me, I want a day where I can fly out into the sky to see more of the other side, if God allows... I'm praying everyday that I can go back to Melbourne, not only to be with my friends but to learn from the country...