happie birthday to me

Today is my birthday. Happy birthday to me. :)
This birthday is very different coz every year without fail, my cousin would celebrate it for me. But this year she didnt. I also dun know why she didnt but its abit sad for me coz she is my fav cousin...haix...it is almost a ritual...she would celebrate my birthday for me and we muz have a cake...haha...i remembered tat last year, we couldnt find any cake and we walked a realli long way...but it was fun...we do ritual stuff toegether...when we were younger, she would meet me in my poly and eat malay food when we were ultra broke. We would spend abit more if we were feeling richer...during christmas, we would stay over at my uncle's place and the next day, we would go to MacDonalds for breakie...Now we wouldnt stay over but without fail, she would still meet me at Mac for breakfast and she would get a candy cane for me..haha..it muz be the original red and white...last year we couldnt get any coz it was too late and all the candy canes were so damn commercialised wiht the disgutsing blue and green and watsoever colours...
i miss her..i miss her celebrating my birthday..i had a quiet birthday this year...its good...i need myself to be alone...not tat i dun appreciate the presents and cakes and fun, but maybe i'm getting old...i need space...argh...
niwae happy birthday to me...